Just played Skyrim from a good five hours~ I'm pleased that I'm actually going to bed on time, considering the lack of sleep I've had since I got the game. Currently listening to the Assassin's Creed II: Brotherhood soundtrack... I love listening to this soundtrack~ hehe
So I'm considerably exhausted tonight. A lot of social interactions that I would have preferred not to have dealt with. It was my cousin's birthday party today and a lot of my aunt's and uncle's friends were invited. To be honest, I wanted to go the backyard and sit there with their three dogs... Better company in my opinion.
After playing with my cousins, I laid down in a room to rest. I stayed there for awhile. I felt like my family thought I was being "anti-social," or awkward, which was not the case at all. I was/am tired. I get like really tired when I talk or socialize with people, it's not that I am awkward or that I don't want to talk to people. I'm not entirely shy or to the point of ridiculous, it's just I needed a moment to myself, to hear only my thoughts and to rest from all the people talking out there.
I wasn't sure if they were upset with me or not, but I did go out and talked with people again. Most thought I had left the party.
If I know a person, it's not as exhausting for me to talk to them, whereas to someone I hardly know or not at all, is where I'll collapse with fatigue at the end of the day. I feel like I have to constantly remind them that I enjoy my solitude, and that I'm not sad or depressed. I just like not having to deal with people and being alone is time I enjoy a lot... Like when I drive in my car by myself.
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